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"Personality Disorder"
I am trying to be a worse person. That's a funny goal. Funny ha ha funny strange unique state of being never heard that one before. It's not easy for me it goes against everything I have been but I know it is what is required now for survival. Disordered personality rearrange myself down to the most basic of programming and then boot up the nervous system once again you did this to me you gave me this disease, safe sex is all well and good well what about a prophylactic for a too sensitive soul? This un-bettering of self, I am making it work a little more day after day. Not quite silent spring in my head yet but I'm trying it the old-fashioned way straight up un-altered not faded fake it 'til you make it even though for now it is a major strain. I am not so stupid to not realize major shifts of de-evolving do take time. Takers taking never stopping once to give me anything but sorrow and maybe a stale breadcrumb. Gaslighting cognitive dissonance psychobabble bullshit. All modern-day trickery and ways of making the simple complex and the complex non-existent. You are just an asshole. Point blank blank stare unaware of what is obvious to people that still have feelings. I'm getting there I swear it I can't wait to get to that point along side of you guys. You feel bad until you get your next hit of shit and then it's back on the horse so love hungry you could eat a whore or wait was that get on one and ride out of town? The exits are clearly marked so get the fuck out of my heart you are so broken you belong in the dumpster with all the other junk. You are like a spoiled cat you just want what you can't have until you have it, then it's as good as dead. Anything else that is offered is unwanted but you'll take it because it has an invisible price tag attached. Sell out your friends for the lack of anything better to do. Maybe I'm being too harsh? Goody goody gumdrops and unicorn farts see I told you I really am making it toward my goal.
11:51 PM - Thursday, Aug. 26, 2021
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