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It could happen to you.
To make myself have a better day at work, I think of hostage victims. Children being raped. Concentration camps. Innocent people getting abused or killed by cops.
Because these are the only situations I can think of that are worse than being at my shitty job.
So I can say to myself, well, it could always be worse. I guess cleaning 20 bathrooms a day isn't THAT bad.
This really can't be good for my mental health.
I keep trying to stay positive at work, but I can only do so by comparing it to truly horrible soul-crushing experiences.
I am looking for a new job and I made an appointment with a private practice psychologist, but it's just not enough.
I need someone in authority to see what's going on and help me.
I don't think it's going to happen.
And this is how people end up homeless and insane. Living out of Trader Joe's dumpsters and sleeping under bridges.
But I keep on fighting the good fight because there's really only one other option.
I'm still here, mutherfucker.
12:27 PM - Saturday, May. 09, 2015
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